Back to YWAM :)

When I first sensed the Lord telling me to visit home after SBFM, I remember asking Him what some of the reasons were for me going home and not outreach after SBFM. In a way, I feel like this time has been an outreach, just not in a foreign country :) When asking, I felt that He said that the time at home would be a re-energizing time for me. A time to rest and reflect. A time with family and friends... but also felt the Lord say "Don't forget". Forget what? I knew right away that He meant don't forget the deeper levels I have gone with Him-the intimacy from growing out of my comfort zone. It can be easy to neglect Him when we are home and comfortable; when we don't realize our need for Him as easily.



I almost feel that two months is not long enough to see everyone! These two months have been filled with wonderful people... catching up, traveling, coffee dates, family... thanks to a small job that has allowed me gas money. I got to see all of my sisters (only my youngest sister lives at home), who some I have not seen in almost two years.



One of my favorite reasons for being home this summer is seeing my youngest sister get excited about her relationship with Jesus. And by growing closer with her...sharing my heart with her and hearing her share her thoughts on life, relationships, friends, and fears about starting high school. This is a huge changing point in her life... and so thankful I could be a part of it.



This summer, God has also challenged me with the question of where I get my strength. Because this summer has been filled with so many people, I got frustrated when I felt empty/burnt out... and felt that the Lord said there are times I try to do things without Him. We can't be lifegivers without Him giving us life inside first! I can have good intentions of reaching out to people, but this is another reminder that I am weak and He is strong. Check out Jeremiah 17:5-8. So thinking back on when He told me "Don't forget", I can smile now and see that we can so easily start depending on ourselves and forget that our strength is from Him.



I am not trying to be all "spiritual"...it is just from my heart and what I have been learning. Try it. Next time you are burnt out/feeling low, try soaking up some scripture... several times this summer when I did not want to start the day, I have read His Word and it literally made me hyper or drastically changed my bad mood into joy :) it really does bring life!

Next week I will be flying back to Maui to continue my YWAM commitment. WEEEEEE! I love my job.


~i found Truth and i am never going back!